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May. 11th, 2006 @ 01:41 pm LIFE <3
I'm 18 years old, and it couldn't feel any different.
I feel the same, I look the same, and I act the same.
Wasn't there supposed to be this big change?
This life changing expierience that changes you forever?
I must say the only thing that feels different is the responsibilities, I am no longer a minor, and i have to be responsible for my actions, my parents might not be able to save my ass anymore.

I feel like my old old old friends are fading away, nothing seems to be in common anymore. They are still very strong christians and I feel so insignificant and not worthy of their time. Or when I do see old friends, they couldn't really care less.
Is it time?
Is it growing up?
Or is it simply neglect?
Have we lost respect for each other?
Have we just simply lost each other?
I don't know, and yeah I care.
But things just seem so different.
Promises aren't kept that often, and I don't really know why.
Why make promises that you can't keep?
Sorry about the random subject change, but I'm bored.
Not that any of you are going to read, comment or care about it.
But I don't blame you, I'm boring. :]

In other words, I'm completely happy in my relationship.
Austin is sent from God, and I didn't realise what I had last time.
This time is so different.
We're real, we're ourselves. And we weren't before.
We're in Love, and it's beautiful.
Hard core, life changing love.
It's tighhhhhht. <3

Well ladies and gentlemen, class is almost over, and I have to go get a manicure and a pedicure. So yeah. I'm out.
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Apr. 28th, 2006 @ 09:51 am (no subject)
I AM A NARCISSIST.

Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. Narcissists tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

this is crazy.
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Apr. 3rd, 2006 @ 01:55 pm (no subject)
i turn 18 in like 20 days.
it's wierd.
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Mar. 27th, 2006 @ 01:18 pm (no subject)
every day of my life that arrives is so much different from the one before.
and they never are like how i expect them to be.
it's fun that way, i guess. never knowing what's coming.
it makes it interesting.
in other words, i think i may have broke my finger, but not bad.
and i start working again at my mom's work.
i'm not entirely sure though if it's permanent or just for a little bit of cash.
who knows, hoping for the best. :]
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Mar. 7th, 2006 @ 01:40 pm (no subject)
i found this in my livejournal from like september...

"well i finally found my tiger lily love. and it's nice. i'm so happy and so is he. its nice to have someone that i can call at any time in the day and he will answer. it's nice having someone to hug me and someone to tell me i'm pretty. its soo nice to have someon to watch movie's with and take naps in thier arms. to just drive for half hour at a time just to be next to each other."

it's amazing how things change.
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Mar. 7th, 2006 @ 01:28 pm .....
so to make a livejournal entry, and have people pay attention to it, you have to put life changing stuff, it's recockulous.
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Jan. 24th, 2006 @ 09:48 am (no subject)
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb














i need to change.
but i won't.
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Jan. 24th, 2006 @ 09:41 am (no subject)
this is my theme song for my life at the moment. :]
it's not good, but seriously, it explains, EVERYTHING.
and anyone who claims to know me should know who this song is about.

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power

It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me

And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you

It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now



I'm hooked on you
I need a fix

I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it

I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
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Dec. 14th, 2005 @ 09:56 am grr
stupid ex's need to leave me alone.

seriously, it's over!

you claim your over me, stop texting me. stop all communication before this whole situation gets messy. seriously.
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Dec. 6th, 2005 @ 09:04 am (no subject)
i'm happy again, and you don't know how rad it is to say that.
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